My Insecurities In High School

Have you ever had that feeling when you know you aren’t going to make any new friends in a new school because your insecurities got the best of you? Believe me, I felt that way since the beginning I stepped foot on this campus. Ever since I was a little girl, I was always curious to do many things but my shyness got the best of me all the time. My apprehensiveness stuck with me ever since then and has not left. In middle school, it was a completely different story because I knew everyone since it was a small school and everyone was really close with each other. Thinking about high school just gave me the chills since I knew it was going to be a much bigger school with around a thousand students, that I barely knew. I’ve always been told that in high school, I should join many clubs and get involved in school. I loved the idea of joining many things my freshman year …show more content…
I was so nervous because this was such a huge step for me, trying out for a team where you will be performing in front of the school. While waiting for the tryouts to begin, the captains passed out numbers, just like a real dance tryouts, similar to the ones in the movies. Being called out, one by one, there were interviews that were taken into place. Later, groups were assigned. In my group, I knew nobody, which made it worse, so my nervous self-returned, with so many thoughts that ran through my head. The first day was mainly icebreakers, in order so everyone can get to know each other. That was much needed since I’ve noticed many were nervous too. Since none of my friends joined I was alone. After the ice breakers, we started to learn a new dance, the tryout dance. All the steps seemed pretty easy, but I was a mess at remembering things. We went through half of it. I honestly did not get that dance, since I thought it was too hard for me. I was at the point of quitting, but I knew if I loved something, I will fight for it till the end.