How My Life Changed Before I Was Born?
Other kids have memories of family game night and going on cool trips and I remember being 12 and hiding in closets while my Dad yelled and left again and again and again. Though to some extent, I led a normal life when at my Mom 's house. I laughed and played but there was always something missing.
As I became older, I becoame more and more distrusting and distant from my Step Dad (who I gave the name Pops as a kid). I was so terrified my bio Dad would be mad if I spent more time and became closer with Pops. Then I became scared Pops would not n 't like me if I messed up because my Dad did not like me much when I messed up. So I pulled away from my family all together. I lived in a dark place for awhile. One day, about a year and a half ago, the walls I built up to hide the fear and abuse fell down. I was given a new beginning, b. But I had to learn how to be a part of a family; h. How to let people love me;, how to love other people. Slowly I 'm learning how to trust and how to accept affection and kind words but it 's incredibly challenging. One area of this whole recovery that I have not attempted to fix at all was my strained relationship with Pops. So when I was given the assignment to do 10 hours of something new I choose to “bond” with him through activities we enjoyed when I was younger like hiking, seeing movies and …show more content…
At one point the topic of college came up. Somehow that led to three and a half hours of tears and apologies and some honesty. I was able to open up and finally admit how hard it was for me to recieve my parents love and attention. I was able to openly discuss how I did not feel apart of the family and to my surprise they listened. Pops gave me good advice and seemed to really care about what I had to say. It was a major stepping stone in our relationship. Last week I was making lunch and Pops came in and sat down and I finally told him what I was doing for my something new project. He had not previously known I had set out on a quest to spend 10 hours with him. He loved the idea and we ended up talking about friendship and college for a whole hour which was really nice. Really great advice was given regarding a tough situation with a friend. Pops had never before been the person I had gone to for advice and I really wish I would