I have experienced many situations in life that have shaped me in the way I am until this day. I often keep things to myself and I rarely share happenings of my life with anyone. As I was growing up, I experienced betrayal from friends; cognitively, I developed a defense mechanism towards betrayal and refrained from sharing any information that might put me at risk. “According to attachment theory, young children construct cognitive-affective representations or internal working models of their experiences in attachment relationships from infancy onwards” (McCarthy and Maughan 446). Since I developed such defense mechanisms at an early age, I have continued to have those same mechanisms until this day, making it hard to change my view towards persons in general.
My lack of trust towards individuals is so high that I do not even trust my mother or siblings. Considering that in the Hispanic culture, individuals tend to be emotionally close to their relatives, I experienced not being close to my family. I did not develop a strong sense of trust with my mother since she would always work, and she wasn’t able to provide the …show more content…
Cognitively, I still have repressed feelings of experiences, affecting the ability of not being able to move on from feelings that should be left behind in the past. Socially, I do have friends but I do not see them as long-term relationships due to the fact that I may not be so willing to share information about myself. I am a good listener, and I am trustworthy, but I can’t return the same feeling by trusting others. Emotionally, I know that my feelings have become repressed over the years. As time goes on, I forget about things, or I just avoid thinking about them since I know they will make me feel sad, angry, or frustrated. In these moments, I often think about the ‘should haves”, “could haves”, and “If’s” but in reality, there’s nothing about the past that people can change, only
My lack of trust towards individuals is so high that I do not even trust my mother or siblings. Considering that in the Hispanic culture, individuals tend to be emotionally close to their relatives, I experienced not being close to my family. I did not develop a strong sense of trust with my mother since she would always work, and she wasn’t able to provide the …show more content…
Cognitively, I still have repressed feelings of experiences, affecting the ability of not being able to move on from feelings that should be left behind in the past. Socially, I do have friends but I do not see them as long-term relationships due to the fact that I may not be so willing to share information about myself. I am a good listener, and I am trustworthy, but I can’t return the same feeling by trusting others. Emotionally, I know that my feelings have become repressed over the years. As time goes on, I forget about things, or I just avoid thinking about them since I know they will make me feel sad, angry, or frustrated. In these moments, I often think about the ‘should haves”, “could haves”, and “If’s” but in reality, there’s nothing about the past that people can change, only