Journal #3(Elementary School)
From the first punch to the final insult, elementary school was by far the worst experience of my life. I remember being physically assaulted all the way back in kindergarten, taking punches from two imbeciles named Anthony and Carmelo. The teacher never did anything to stop the bullying, all she would ever do is tell them they weren't being nice. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that no one would help me; after all, it's human nature to turn the other way when confronted with a conflict. At the very least, my suffering taught me a sick and twisted version of independence that would evolve into a heightened level of maturity during my later adolescent years. The physical pain that I endured from the beatings …show more content…
I remember showing signs of anxiety back in kindergarten, when I would cry every morning because I could simply not handle going to class and being away from my mother. I vividly recall looking out the window of my classroom hoping to see her pass by. In essence, I was a momma's boy, but I had major coping issues with regards to school life, issues that would follow me all the way until high school. She was the only person who I trusted, the only one who would not actively seek to hurt me. Being harassed on a daily basis destroyed my confidence, and left me with an inability to take compliments. When someone compliments me, my mind instantly believes that the person is being sarcastic and ungenuine. I have closed myself off from other people in an effort to preserve what little self esteem I have left. Having been bullied as a child left me with a tendency to think that every single action and decision I make is wrong. In addition to this, I have been left with the horrible propensity of apologizing and feeling guilt for actions that are not my own. Thinking about my experiences with harassment and bullying helps me to realize that no one in this world is pure, and that no one can be trusted, all people, especially when put in a position of self preservation, will sacrifice their
From the first punch to the final insult, elementary school was by far the worst experience of my life. I remember being physically assaulted all the way back in kindergarten, taking punches from two imbeciles named Anthony and Carmelo. The teacher never did anything to stop the bullying, all she would ever do is tell them they weren't being nice. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that no one would help me; after all, it's human nature to turn the other way when confronted with a conflict. At the very least, my suffering taught me a sick and twisted version of independence that would evolve into a heightened level of maturity during my later adolescent years. The physical pain that I endured from the beatings …show more content…
I remember showing signs of anxiety back in kindergarten, when I would cry every morning because I could simply not handle going to class and being away from my mother. I vividly recall looking out the window of my classroom hoping to see her pass by. In essence, I was a momma's boy, but I had major coping issues with regards to school life, issues that would follow me all the way until high school. She was the only person who I trusted, the only one who would not actively seek to hurt me. Being harassed on a daily basis destroyed my confidence, and left me with an inability to take compliments. When someone compliments me, my mind instantly believes that the person is being sarcastic and ungenuine. I have closed myself off from other people in an effort to preserve what little self esteem I have left. Having been bullied as a child left me with a tendency to think that every single action and decision I make is wrong. In addition to this, I have been left with the horrible propensity of apologizing and feeling guilt for actions that are not my own. Thinking about my experiences with harassment and bullying helps me to realize that no one in this world is pure, and that no one can be trusted, all people, especially when put in a position of self preservation, will sacrifice their