Sometimes I wonder what people are afraid of.
When I talk about it with my friends I always get plain answers like: "spiders, dogs or my mother". It is a bit different when I think about my own fears.
The last couple of months I think I am afraid of probably anything.
The simplest thing that scares me is the ocean. Not the water itself but the fear of the unknown beneath me. Having nothing to hold on to, or to jump on if something would happen, or the fear of being pulled down. I always think of what can go wrong. Even as a child I would make escape plans for possible break-ins at home or what would happen if someone tried to grab me or tried to touch me.
Like I said I am afraid of a lot of things that and I can't let them go, when I was 16 the age of the young and stupid. I was on a vacation with a friend Melissa. I was enjoying the sun and everything. Until I did something that will follow me probably a long time. I was in this group chat on WhatsApp with a couple …show more content…
Everything is fine and I am o so smart and pretty and I do not have any problem. But unfortunately, I do. My next fear is different. It is a lot more complicated, and I still don't know how I think about it. It is the Turkish traditions, religion and community. You can say I am in the middle of an Identity crisis. I don't know what I want how I want it, I even don't know if I want to be in a community like this at all. I am changing. 6 months ago, I was surrounded by my Turkish friends and a couple other girls who were not Dutch. They never went out dancing, always did what their parents asked of them and constantly judged others. I don't know if I was happy, I was and still am confused. These people believe that drinking, going out and having boyfriends are things to be ashamed of. If you don't feel ashamed about it, they will make you feel ashamed about it. I am drinking since I was 14 years old (recreational not more than 3 or 4 times a
When I talk about it with my friends I always get plain answers like: "spiders, dogs or my mother". It is a bit different when I think about my own fears.
The last couple of months I think I am afraid of probably anything.
The simplest thing that scares me is the ocean. Not the water itself but the fear of the unknown beneath me. Having nothing to hold on to, or to jump on if something would happen, or the fear of being pulled down. I always think of what can go wrong. Even as a child I would make escape plans for possible break-ins at home or what would happen if someone tried to grab me or tried to touch me.
Like I said I am afraid of a lot of things that and I can't let them go, when I was 16 the age of the young and stupid. I was on a vacation with a friend Melissa. I was enjoying the sun and everything. Until I did something that will follow me probably a long time. I was in this group chat on WhatsApp with a couple …show more content…
Everything is fine and I am o so smart and pretty and I do not have any problem. But unfortunately, I do. My next fear is different. It is a lot more complicated, and I still don't know how I think about it. It is the Turkish traditions, religion and community. You can say I am in the middle of an Identity crisis. I don't know what I want how I want it, I even don't know if I want to be in a community like this at all. I am changing. 6 months ago, I was surrounded by my Turkish friends and a couple other girls who were not Dutch. They never went out dancing, always did what their parents asked of them and constantly judged others. I don't know if I was happy, I was and still am confused. These people believe that drinking, going out and having boyfriends are things to be ashamed of. If you don't feel ashamed about it, they will make you feel ashamed about it. I am drinking since I was 14 years old (recreational not more than 3 or 4 times a