scared. That much is easy to say. I've been scared most of my life if many different things and many different reasons. It's what I'm afraid of and why that's hard to explain.
There's so much on my mind at this very moment, so many different topics, situations, and scenarios. Most have to do with the here and now. Some are about past experiences that I'm afraid will happen again, and I don't want them to. They've caused me enough heartache already. Occasionally, my mind drifts to the future. A stray thought or two might be about me possibly having a happy future, but most aren't. I can't imagine myself having a good,relatively normal future that sees me achieving dreams I used to have, but have since given up on. Why? Because of my past; it holds me back.
I've had many people tell me that despite the pathetic hand life has dealt me so far, a pair of fives at best, they believe that I'll have a successful future if I believe it myself. That's the problem: I can't. …show more content…
You are your own worst enemy, after all. My teachers, to their credit, always tried to make it known to me how much they liked me,enjoyed teaching me, saw my intellectual abilities and capabilities, and how well they thought that I would do in life. I wonder what they would say now, given everything I've done and everything that has happened? One of their star pupils dropped out due to sheer stupidity, lounged around for 2 years, managed to stopped being lazy and get their GED, but failed to do anything in the 15 months since. Why? I honestly don't know if I could put it into words or if I could come up with a complex answer because there isn't a simple
There's so much on my mind at this very moment, so many different topics, situations, and scenarios. Most have to do with the here and now. Some are about past experiences that I'm afraid will happen again, and I don't want them to. They've caused me enough heartache already. Occasionally, my mind drifts to the future. A stray thought or two might be about me possibly having a happy future, but most aren't. I can't imagine myself having a good,relatively normal future that sees me achieving dreams I used to have, but have since given up on. Why? Because of my past; it holds me back.
I've had many people tell me that despite the pathetic hand life has dealt me so far, a pair of fives at best, they believe that I'll have a successful future if I believe it myself. That's the problem: I can't. …show more content…
You are your own worst enemy, after all. My teachers, to their credit, always tried to make it known to me how much they liked me,enjoyed teaching me, saw my intellectual abilities and capabilities, and how well they thought that I would do in life. I wonder what they would say now, given everything I've done and everything that has happened? One of their star pupils dropped out due to sheer stupidity, lounged around for 2 years, managed to stopped being lazy and get their GED, but failed to do anything in the 15 months since. Why? I honestly don't know if I could put it into words or if I could come up with a complex answer because there isn't a simple