My next theme, “Rue” constitutes the biggest part of my anthology because what it symbolizes epitomized my very being for a large portion of my life. I had lost the last ounce of my innocence when I realized my parents were destructively toxic and my friends had never been my friends in the first place. I tried so desperately to cling onto the people I still cared for and the things that mattered most to me, but most importantly the last aspects of me that were still filled with light but, as Sophia White stated, “I gnashed my teeth and ripped my hair, called for you, but you weren’t there”. At that point, I had lost hope in everyone, everything, and myself and decided no one could ever save me from my darkness and the pain I felt was unbearable. I believed the only way to fix myself was to bury my problems deep inside my heart so I would not be able to feel them and I created a wall around my heart so no one could ever penetrate it and hurt like in the past. And by doing this I hurt so many people because anyone got too close, I immediately pushed them away without a second thought. I did love them and I did care for them, but I wasn’t able to express my emotions because they were so deeply lost in my heart and I wasn’t able to give them the affection they deserved, which to this day has been some of my greatest regrets. In the movie, “The Breakfast Club”, Allison Reynolds, the basketcase, says that “When you grow up, your heart dies”, and when John Bender, the criminal, scoffs, “Who cares?”, in tears, she immediately replies, “I do”. And I believe that no matter how hard one tries to force themselves to not feel, it will never work because, according to John Green, “that’s the thing about pain, it demands to be
My next theme, “Rue” constitutes the biggest part of my anthology because what it symbolizes epitomized my very being for a large portion of my life. I had lost the last ounce of my innocence when I realized my parents were destructively toxic and my friends had never been my friends in the first place. I tried so desperately to cling onto the people I still cared for and the things that mattered most to me, but most importantly the last aspects of me that were still filled with light but, as Sophia White stated, “I gnashed my teeth and ripped my hair, called for you, but you weren’t there”. At that point, I had lost hope in everyone, everything, and myself and decided no one could ever save me from my darkness and the pain I felt was unbearable. I believed the only way to fix myself was to bury my problems deep inside my heart so I would not be able to feel them and I created a wall around my heart so no one could ever penetrate it and hurt like in the past. And by doing this I hurt so many people because anyone got too close, I immediately pushed them away without a second thought. I did love them and I did care for them, but I wasn’t able to express my emotions because they were so deeply lost in my heart and I wasn’t able to give them the affection they deserved, which to this day has been some of my greatest regrets. In the movie, “The Breakfast Club”, Allison Reynolds, the basketcase, says that “When you grow up, your heart dies”, and when John Bender, the criminal, scoffs, “Who cares?”, in tears, she immediately replies, “I do”. And I believe that no matter how hard one tries to force themselves to not feel, it will never work because, according to John Green, “that’s the thing about pain, it demands to be