Why Do I Trust In Relationships?

It has always been really easy for me to make friends but I am not overtly social. I did not talk much and I was not loud as a adolescent, nor am I now. I have always loved academics, so I talk a lot in class, but in social situations I come across very shy much of the time, unless I am around people whom I trust. I had lots of friends in elementary and middle school, but I was also used to them eventually moving away or disliking me. Either that, or deciding I was not 'fun ' enough because I have never been really very outgoing. It was normally that, or deciding I was not 'cool ' enough to be their friend anymore because I have never really cared about being popular. However, I have still always tried to move past that and not let it stop …show more content…
However, I would say that I try to see people clearly while also doing my best to love them and give all that I can and that they need as their friend. Although it does not mean I do not greatly value all of my relationships -because definitely I do- there are just few relationships I trust to be consistent, and many of my platonic relationship do not count in this category. I usually leave most of my walls down, however there are a few that stay up consistently until a relationship surpasses around the four or five year mark. Even then, they come down very slow.There are only a few people who have made it that far that are not in my family members. Maybe only …show more content…
However, I would not call a lot of them rolemodels for myself. I tend to not do that, but with just a few people. My 3rd grade teacher was so kind, smart, and loving. She gave attention to every student and was very creative. My 7th grade science teacher was so quirky, confident in his quirkiness (which is very appealing to me), and loved astronomy. He was always astonished at how awesome the world is. My high-school music teacher was very compassionate, open and confident about who she was, and helped me meet the doctors that would aid me in overcoming my eating disorder. We developed a very close relationship because of that. My last youth minister in high-school was an amazing man of God and a good friend of mine. He was the only youth minister I have ever had who did not just see me as some weird kid he had to deal with on Wednesdays and Sundays, but as a strong child of God that he wanted to get to know was worth investing in. I care a lot about all of these people, they mean a lot to me, and have definitely influenced my character and who I aspire to