Personal Narrative: My Loss Of Love

The loss of a loved one is an indescribable feeling. So many mixed emotions and pain bottled up in everyone that sometimes it may be hard to even let out into words. Whether it’s a friend, family member, or somebody in the community; it affects everyone differently. The most painful goodbyes are the ones never said and never explained. When my little cousin lost her life to a sudden tragedy a few months ago, my life turned upside down.
Sierra was an incredible individual that left a mark on everyone’s heart. Her laugh was so contagious you’d burst out laughing uncontrollably and not even understand why. Ever since we were younger she would start laughing so much that she couldn’t stop and would even start crying from laughing too hard. She …show more content…
I, on the other hand, was slightly terrified, I was not having it. Especially once we got towards the dragon roller coaster ride, I nearly passed out just looking at it. Sierra was so excited she was just begging me to ride with her, knowing I was scared she held my hand and promised me it wouldn’t kill me to ride just one time. I ended up getting on, even though I was definitely too small to be on the ride; needless to say, I hated it because I almost fell out while we were upside down. Besides that, we all had a blast. She’s always been the one to comfort me when I was down or scared and helped me conquer my fears …show more content…
It was incredibly hard for a while because since we were so close everyone wanted me involved with fundraisers and memoirs in her memory, but I couldn’t handle it. I refused to even get out of bed for an entire week, I was barely on my phone because all I saw were posts about her and the accident. So many people were messaging me, even news reporters and it was just all too much for me. A week and a half later I had to get myself to go back to school, it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I’ve never been the girl that expresses her feelings or wants everyone to baby me, so when I got a thousand people wanting to hug me all at once I felt like I was suffocating. It’s still a sensitive topic for me and I completely fell apart at the celebration of life ceremony, it’s incredibly overwhelming sitting in the front with all of your family and the entire community along with everyone from school staring at you and watching you walk to the front of the church. They had posters and slideshows full of pictures and our entire childhood was in majority of them. There wasn’t a funeral because the wreck was so bad, her mother decided not to have one. But to this day I still haven’t even gotten myself to go inside her