Reflection Paper On Sexual Orientation

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I don’t even know where should I start to be honest, because I’m not quite sure when did I start to question my sexual orientation. It seems like I had some doubts though all my life… However, when you are getting older those doubts are needed to be solved. Sooner or later, people are going to start asking you about those things, and you don’t want to lie to them. Actually I’m not the right person to talk about it, because I did lie. I went through all middle school denying that I was gay. I guess, I lied to myself which is the worst thing that you possible could have ever done.

When my freshman year started and I moved to United States, I met a first openly gay person in my life. We talked, we liked each other and we got into a relationship from which I learned how is important to be yourself and how is necessary to do what you really want to do. So, I finally admitted that I was gay. Meanwhile I wasn’t ready to come out at that point, so it was super secret from everybody else. We never showed up together, we were meeting only after school and always used to change places, we didn’t even say “hi” to each other in the hallways. Time passed, but as longer that relationship were going on, as harder it was to keep lying for me. Someday it just got too much to hide and carry inside myself, so I decided to break it off and make myself think that I’m not gay and everything that happened was a big mistake. It’s actually funny how fast and harshly your life can be changed.…

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