Even though I had volunteered before because of my Pleasant Valley background. There was a difference between having to volunteer to graduate to being willing and honored to volunteer because of how helping those girls every week made me feel. Where I volunteered the coordinator made sure I could have basically kept track of them and made sure they were paying attention during class and asked them questions about what they have learned in class. Yet between all of that, they have asked me for advice with a sibling they were fighting with or they have asked me girly stuff like if periods hurt. Those girls thought of me as a leader which I have never thought of myself as. Which lead me to ask myself, if a fifth or sixth grader had confidence in me, I needed to find it within myself as …show more content…
They had asked me what my plans were after high school. After I told them that I was going to take a semester off, a good majority questioned me. They had look at me with less respect. A good majority had the preconception that if I did not attend college right after high school that there was a slim to none chance I would have returned. The people that I thought believed in me ended up having not been able to trust my words. What they did not understand was that for twelve years I barely had confidence in myself. That semester off gave me a time to gain confidence in myself on my own without the stress of meeting deadlines for school or deeply fighting for acceptance by others. My gain in confidence taught me that desiring acceptance is not a way to succeed in life. Having been unconfident I was always the follower of any group I was in. Over time, I grew confidence and came out from the shadows. Which made me comfortable within