It is January of 2005, and I am on my way to Columbus for my first chemotherapy. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in October of last year. My two sons, Jeff and Jason are coming with me. Jeff driving, Jason sitting in the passenger seat and I 'm in the back seat of the 2002 GMC Envoy. I glance out the window and watch as we pass the Shoe. It is chilly outside and the winds were powerful on this winter day, snows covering the trees and the ground, it’s a beautiful sight of a winter wonderland. I’m warm in my cozy knitted sweater I made for myself a few months ago, it’s one of my favorites. I can feel the warm air blowing onto my feet from the heater. We are on our way to the James Center, where I 'm receiving my treatment.
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The room’s walls are light yellow and there are six green leather recliners, one for each person that will be receiving treatment. Posters are plastered all over the wall about breast cancer: describing breast cancer, symptoms of it, different treatment options and other things according to breast cancer. I honestly didn 't read the posters, I noticed them when I walked in though. I have already researched a bunch about breast cancer and what I needed to know prior to this appointment. The rooms actually very spacious and it doesn’t feel overcrowded since I’m not the only patient in the …show more content…
Once they are both gone I walk back to my room and lie down in my bed, it feels so good to just relax. I close my eyes to take a nap, but my mind refuses to let me sleep. I cannot seem to stop thinking about all the different outcomes that could happen to me. Will I still be around in a few years? What if I don’t get to watch my kids and grandkids grow up? Why did this happen to me? All these thoughts are running through my head and I can’t find an answer to them. The only conclusion I keep coming to is cancer controls my destiny unless I defeat it and I’m determined to do so. I will watch my kid and grandkids grow up. I will be at their soccer games and dance recitals. I have so many things to look forward to in life and accomplish, cancer is not going to ruin them. At this moment I realized I hold my future in my hands not cancer and I will do everything in my power to make sure it doesn’t take over me and my
A month ago I …show more content…
The room’s walls are light yellow and there are six green leather recliners, one for each person that will be receiving treatment. Posters are plastered all over the wall about breast cancer: describing breast cancer, symptoms of it, different treatment options and other things according to breast cancer. I honestly didn 't read the posters, I noticed them when I walked in though. I have already researched a bunch about breast cancer and what I needed to know prior to this appointment. The rooms actually very spacious and it doesn’t feel overcrowded since I’m not the only patient in the …show more content…
Once they are both gone I walk back to my room and lie down in my bed, it feels so good to just relax. I close my eyes to take a nap, but my mind refuses to let me sleep. I cannot seem to stop thinking about all the different outcomes that could happen to me. Will I still be around in a few years? What if I don’t get to watch my kids and grandkids grow up? Why did this happen to me? All these thoughts are running through my head and I can’t find an answer to them. The only conclusion I keep coming to is cancer controls my destiny unless I defeat it and I’m determined to do so. I will watch my kid and grandkids grow up. I will be at their soccer games and dance recitals. I have so many things to look forward to in life and accomplish, cancer is not going to ruin them. At this moment I realized I hold my future in my hands not cancer and I will do everything in my power to make sure it doesn’t take over me and my