I know there must be good in every person but some people become too corrupted by the temptations in the world to forget about all the good that was once there…. Many people have there own definition of humiliation and shame, my personal humiliation is ‘where a person steps out of there way to make you feel bad about yourself’ while shame is ‘done to make the other think about the actions that they have taken.’ My story is about humiliation simply by the fact that it made me feel worthless rather than making me learn my lesson. My ‘father’ was a very broken man, having very little education from being in and out of juvenile hall since the age of twelve he clearly had built up anger which was normally resolved with drinking or Crystal.
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I remember then my ‘father’ came out, dropped his beer and ran over to me because I was the closest to him I guess. He grabbed my waist and carried me thru the house staggering as I was crying scared and my mom, grandmother and brother all tried to make him stop and put me down but their tries were to no avail.
When we got to the back yard where the willow switch tree was, he dropped me on the ground and yelled “Pick your switch!” I knew way before he grabbed me that I was screwed, so I grabbed the first one I saw which was medium size with a sharp tip. I thought he would hit my wrists or hands like normal but he turned me around ripped my shirt down the back and started hitting my back mercilessly. I’m pretty sure he hit me around twelve to thirteen times while intoxicated so if he missed i got it twice as hard as …show more content…
I got brought into our house at the time by my mom, she was telling me the entire time that he didn’t mean it and that I basically brought it upon myself, with Peroxide being poured down my back and bandages around my wounds. My ‘father’ got into his car and didn’t come back, that was honestly one of the last times i’ve seen him so maybe my actual punishment was to never see him again and causing so much turmoil within my family.
After the punishment I felt betrayed because that was my father, I understand I was in the wrong but it was only to get back on him. Following hatred for anything and everything that breathed I was angry at the world. I felt humiliated because it was done in front of people that I truly love and I never want them to witness anything like this again.
No it wasn’t justified simply because I was just the follower and the youngest, and he was intoxicated so it probably would have had a different outcome if he was sober. My thinking behind this is because without those years of alcohol and drug abuse he might have made better decisions in life which wouldn’t have landed our family in major debt for continuous years just for his next fix. Honestly it wasn’t appropriate, Like many of people have told me
“My ‘father’ was like fools
Prior …show more content…
I remember then my ‘father’ came out, dropped his beer and ran over to me because I was the closest to him I guess. He grabbed my waist and carried me thru the house staggering as I was crying scared and my mom, grandmother and brother all tried to make him stop and put me down but their tries were to no avail.
When we got to the back yard where the willow switch tree was, he dropped me on the ground and yelled “Pick your switch!” I knew way before he grabbed me that I was screwed, so I grabbed the first one I saw which was medium size with a sharp tip. I thought he would hit my wrists or hands like normal but he turned me around ripped my shirt down the back and started hitting my back mercilessly. I’m pretty sure he hit me around twelve to thirteen times while intoxicated so if he missed i got it twice as hard as …show more content…
I got brought into our house at the time by my mom, she was telling me the entire time that he didn’t mean it and that I basically brought it upon myself, with Peroxide being poured down my back and bandages around my wounds. My ‘father’ got into his car and didn’t come back, that was honestly one of the last times i’ve seen him so maybe my actual punishment was to never see him again and causing so much turmoil within my family.
After the punishment I felt betrayed because that was my father, I understand I was in the wrong but it was only to get back on him. Following hatred for anything and everything that breathed I was angry at the world. I felt humiliated because it was done in front of people that I truly love and I never want them to witness anything like this again.
No it wasn’t justified simply because I was just the follower and the youngest, and he was intoxicated so it probably would have had a different outcome if he was sober. My thinking behind this is because without those years of alcohol and drug abuse he might have made better decisions in life which wouldn’t have landed our family in major debt for continuous years just for his next fix. Honestly it wasn’t appropriate, Like many of people have told me
“My ‘father’ was like fools