Hearing The Word ' Auto Immune ' Essay

730 Words Apr 21st, 2015 3 Pages
Hearing the word “auto-immune” can be frightening. Especially when waiting on a diagnosis from your doctor. When I was told I have Systemic Lupus Erythematous I was in shock. Every symptom I experienced finally made sense. Anger was the first emotion I felt. I began to resent God for what he gave me. Why me? I’m too young to have a life ling illness. After many prayers and long talks with the man upstairs, I have full faith in The Lord’s plan for me. I believe God knows what is best for me. Not knowing much about the chronic sickness, I had many questions. When doctors could not seem to answer these curiosities, a wave of angst washed over me. I was uncertain about my entire life, and the next step to take. People often say God works in mysterious ways. While this is true, knowing God chose me to live this life is more uplifting. Once the medications were forced down my throat I know that I no longer had total control of my life. I was a guinea pig. To my doctors, I am merely a research project on this new and interesting disease. The regular infusions altered my personality drastically. The daily pills cause me to feel like a robot, and the frequent doctor’s appointments leave me wondering. Is this feeling awful really worth being “healthy”? Treatment takes more of a toll than the disease itself. Being categorized as a pediatric patient in rheumatology sector I am often placed in the infusion room with kids; typically toddlers, sometimes babies, fighting cancer. To hear…

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