Scattered Memories, Shattered Dreams, And Lost Hope

Scattered memories, shattered dreams, and lost hope. It was once all in tact. Life beats you down and what your left with is someone you don’t even recognize, you lose yourself and when you pull yourself back together the damage left over can be unbearable. The negative thoughts can be unbearable, its almost a voice that breaks your confidence. The attack comes and it’s like everything around you drowns out, your breath starts to rapidly increase, and your heart beats rapidly as well, and then it begins. “Why bother with people, your social skills are failed because you failed to save them, you hate people and clearly they hate you”. It feels like thick clay layering the top of your head,” the confusion is to much, what good are you if you …show more content…
You looked up and things felt illuminated where you once only saw darkness. Feelings of confidence and hope returned. Physically and mentally felt like a war was finally over or rather an intermission but spiritually, your re-charged and truly motivated. The work for keeping the spirituality up is a little difficult at times and the negative thoughts are ever present and arise and they win some battles but as long as you keep your faith in God, the negative thoughts and darkness won’t win the war. Temptations come after, they break your spirit because they come relentlessly and you give into it but with the spiritual strength you have now your able to pick yourself back up and try again, you are not one for quitting so why start now. The crowd stares as the bad thoughts attack again,”look at yourself, nobody wants you here”, You must look crazy to everyone else. They giggle as you apply pressure to your head to try gaining control of the bad thoughts physically to no avail,”these people have no hope for you, why should you? You can’t do this without them”, you read your scriptures even if its just one or two verses and it settles …show more content…
You start to figure your fighting this battle on earth by yourself with god’s help, you could do it, no problem. “ Who would want to reach out to you