Liu, a middle aged man with Schizophrenia was my first patient on the locked Psychiatric ward. He was deported from New Zealand after he heard voices instructing him to stab his wife and their neighbor. Throughout our relationship, I began feeling more comfortable asking him about his hallucinations and I felt as if we were connecting. During his last hour of stay at the hospital waiting for his family to take him home, I was convinced that Liu was accepting his Schizophrenia and would use his obvious intellect to manage his disease and move forward with his life. The two weeks later we got a consultation request from Emergency department for self injury. When the attending doctor and I went to ED, I was devastated to see that Liu stabbed himself.
