Rachel admittedly has a very distinct and somewhat off putting personality: she is self loathing, obsessive, petty, and feels purposeless. However, throughout the novel her character undergoes significant changes, and she ultimately becomes nearly unrecognizable in form and personality. Rachel self loathes to the extreme. Although she exhibits self positivity, she still goes as far as to say “I'm not beautiful, and I can't have kids, so what does that make me? Worthless.”, these feelings are prevalent throughout the majority of the novel. But, one event causes her self-loathing to stop abruptly, Megan's murder. Her murder gave Rachel purpose and allowed her to shed the negative feelings that bound her.
Rachel admittedly has a very distinct and somewhat off putting personality: she is self loathing, obsessive, petty, and feels purposeless. However, throughout the novel her character undergoes significant changes, and she ultimately becomes nearly unrecognizable in form and personality. Rachel self loathes to the extreme. Although she exhibits self positivity, she still goes as far as to say “I'm not beautiful, and I can't have kids, so what does that make me? Worthless.”, these feelings are prevalent throughout the majority of the novel. But, one event causes her self-loathing to stop abruptly, Megan's murder. Her murder gave Rachel purpose and allowed her to shed the negative feelings that bound her.