Most of all I felt betrayed by the man that brought me into this world, the man that was supposed to protect and provide for me, the man that my mother often stated I was so much like, yet he chose to replace me with other children that were not even his flush and blood. I was angry with him to the point that I experienced hatred towards him. I attempted to convince myself I didn’t need him and I didn’t want him in my life, but the desire to have my father in my never ended. I experienced jealousy towards his girlfriend and her children and I didn’t even know them. At the same time I felt shameful and insecure about myself as I believed I he thought I was not good enough to be in his life. I placed a great amount of blame on myself for not making him proud of me. I was confused as to what I had done that caused him not to want me in his
Most of all I felt betrayed by the man that brought me into this world, the man that was supposed to protect and provide for me, the man that my mother often stated I was so much like, yet he chose to replace me with other children that were not even his flush and blood. I was angry with him to the point that I experienced hatred towards him. I attempted to convince myself I didn’t need him and I didn’t want him in my life, but the desire to have my father in my never ended. I experienced jealousy towards his girlfriend and her children and I didn’t even know them. At the same time I felt shameful and insecure about myself as I believed I he thought I was not good enough to be in his life. I placed a great amount of blame on myself for not making him proud of me. I was confused as to what I had done that caused him not to want me in his