The sad part about it all is that I really can’t speak on my father’s side of the family that much because he hasn’t been in my life for over 15 years. I have no relationship with him whatsoever because I gave him a number a chances to be in my life and he never took advantage of that opportunity. Although, I would have liked for him to see me grow up and became the young man I am today he has shown me on numerous occasions that he didn’t see potential in me or my other seven siblings he’d abandoned, some of them I still have yet to meet. I don’t think anyone will ever feel my pain of not having a father figure in their life as much as I had to. No male role model, no guidance just a single mother doing the best she can for her children with no handouts. Today, I see Carlton as just another statistic who was cowardly enough to bring innocent lives into this cruel world and not take care of them. I no longer have complaints or regrets for my feeling towards him, everything I have felt towards him from sorrow to guilt is no longer existent. I have blamed myself for his mistakes and wrong doings and I
The sad part about it all is that I really can’t speak on my father’s side of the family that much because he hasn’t been in my life for over 15 years. I have no relationship with him whatsoever because I gave him a number a chances to be in my life and he never took advantage of that opportunity. Although, I would have liked for him to see me grow up and became the young man I am today he has shown me on numerous occasions that he didn’t see potential in me or my other seven siblings he’d abandoned, some of them I still have yet to meet. I don’t think anyone will ever feel my pain of not having a father figure in their life as much as I had to. No male role model, no guidance just a single mother doing the best she can for her children with no handouts. Today, I see Carlton as just another statistic who was cowardly enough to bring innocent lives into this cruel world and not take care of them. I no longer have complaints or regrets for my feeling towards him, everything I have felt towards him from sorrow to guilt is no longer existent. I have blamed myself for his mistakes and wrong doings and I