I didn’t think of anyone else or their welfare much at all. Before the programme was in my heart I only did the right thing if it happened to fall in with what I wanted. Then when I eventually started doing the things I should be doing, I only did them because I knew I would feel bad about myself if I didn’t. Now I can do the things I should be doing without a grudge or resentment, often without a second thought. What I want to do is different now so doing the right thing is easier.
My spiritual awakening wasn’t less than, it was just different from. I didn’t develop a strong connection with a God of my understanding that other people spoke of (maybe that’s a ‘yet’ for me) but my mind opened up, my heart started to soften, I began to stop projecting so much and I began to start living sober one day at a time and doing the next right thing. Good Orderly Direction was working in me. By looking at and letting go of my resentments, fears and the guilt I felt for harming others, I was able to start living in the sunlight of the spirit. My spirit was now able to grow and blossom – thanks to