This is evident in the statement “the blue air of spring, fresh from its memories of windy pools and lush shrubbery, could thrill him with eagerness.” (p 328) The readers are informed that even though Mr. Parson couldn't see the landscape in front of him, he could still get thrilled just by the thought it.
However, even by thinking positive thoughts during a presentation, anxiety and fear slowly builds up. Steadily speeding the heartbeat of the heart, making the simple pulsation of the heart pressing against your sweaty skin hurt. Trying to hold it down or accumulating it won’t relief the anxiety. Rather, it will work against oneself. Unlike Mr. Parson, Markward, has accumulated the actions of the past, refusing to move on and as a result has created has lived through life with the only objective to gain the pity and sympathy of other through his wicked lie. Even until the end when his story is revealed to be a lie he still holds strong to the objective of making people feel pity for him by screaming