Narrative Essay On Mental Illnesses

Mental illnesses are not a joke. The way they are glorified on the internet is wrong. They’re represented as ‘trendy’ and ‘cool’. I know from experience that it is anything but cool. I’ve been on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication for about two years now. It all started when I was still in public school. I had no idea what a panic attack was, so when I was hyperventilating in my room for no apparent reason, I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I wrote it off as hormones and continued normally. However, normal stopped when I woke up one cold November morning, and felt like something was off. I couldn’t put my finger on it, and I didn’t feel physically ill, so I went to school figuring it was just nervousness over a test that day. It wasn’t. The day started out okay, aside from …show more content…
I told her that I thought I was having some sort of anxiety attack and she called my mom. As I was waiting, the same thing happened. The crying, the shaking, the hyperventilation. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. My mom took me to the doctor, where I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder. They put me on medication about a month after that, and I began homeschooling. To this day, I still deal with panic disorder. It feels like your body is an over-sensitive security system. The smallest thing can set it off. Possibly the worst thing about having a combination of depression and anxiety, is that your mind is constantly in a paradox. You have no motivation to get out of bed and go to school, but you are terrified of failing. Not only that, but people try to fix you. Very poorly, might I add. Common phrases include, “Nothing is going to happen. Just get over it.” “Why don’t you just go out for once?” “Just stay positive and all of this will go away.” While it’s nice to try to maintain a positive mindset all the time, it’s not always realistic. Not every day is going to feel like rainbows and