Narrative Essay About Depression

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The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines depression as “feelings of severe despondency and dejection”. Depression is just feeling sad, right? No, depression is much more than being sad or upset. Depression is misunderstood.
Depression is a constant feeling of despair and hopelessness. I am angry that I am the way I am and I want to get better … but will I? I don’t know. It has been almost five years and I have given up hope. Depression is a black hole that I cannot seem to crawl out of. I claw my way to the surface only to be ripped back down by my own thoughts. Depression is being hungry to the point that it feels like someone is stabbing me in the stomach, but I am not able to eat. Depression is insomniac nights. I go to bed exhausted, but
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Sometimes I cannot make myself get out of bed in the morning. Other times, it is because I see my reflection in the mirror and break down. I sob and scream until my throat aches. Depression is having dark circles and bags under my eyes. My cheeks are sunken in due to the fact that I have not eaten in days. My lips are chapped and peeling, and I cannot make them stop quivering. Depression is hair that is nappy and matted together. I have not washed or brushed it in four days. Depression is self-hatred. I am ashamed of the way I look so I begin to isolate myself. I stop talking altogether and just focus on getting through the …show more content…
Eventually I start questioning everything. Would I be better off dead? Would anyone miss me? Would they even notice?
People who do not have depression do not seem to understand it. They think that it is made up, and that the person with depression is faking it. People think we are just trying to get attention. Trust me, attention is the last thing we want. We just want to be happy again. We want to be able to feel something other than the crushing numbness we feel on a daily basis. Too many people think depression is something someone can just get over. If it was as easy as they make it sound, we would have gotten better years ago.
Of course, there are different types of medication that people can take, but those tend to be expensive. Depression is curable. Letting a person know that they are loved and cared about can make a huge difference in how they deal with their depression. It is much easier to deal with depression if you have someone that you can confide your thoughts in. All we need is for someone to be there for us while we battle

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