You may not be the same guy you were before but you’re still selfish and I’m still not enough. You’re a good guy, I’m just not sure why you’re so bad to me. Your sweet letters and long meaningful texts always meant so much to me and made me think you really care about me but turns out it 's just words..the same words you 've said to Kiera.. about how she will be a good wife and mom and how you hope you 're the one by her side and how no one else compares to her..just like you told me..that is sickening. You telling us both you 're ready to settle down and start a family..it 's like you have no heart at all. But it is my fault, I should have known better than to fall for you again just to get my feelings hurt. I should have learned by now that you don 't mean the things you say, it 's all lies. But dummy me tries to believe you every time because I want what you say to be true so bad. But that old saying is true, actions speak louder than words and your actions have proved that you still don 't want me. I just wonder what your karma for doing all this to me is going to be or even if you will have any since I didn’t do anything to you to deserve this. I should HATE you, but I …show more content…
I can’t imagine what I will do. She also told me that she knew I wanted to be with you that I was just scared to lose you all over again. And I didn’t realize it but she was right, I am scared. I 'm scared that I 'm never going to find someone who compares to you. Even after all the bull, I still have never loved someone so much and I 'm scared I never will. I 'm scared of never getting over you and always thinking of you. I 've tried but I just can 't seem to forget about you. I think of you every dang day, everything reminds me of you and it’s so hard. I have to learn to stop going places just because I hope you 're there. I have to learn to not give into you every time you try to talk to me. I 'm scared of losing you forever. I know you haven’t been mine in a long time but it was like even though you weren 't mine I had a piece of you but now I have to let that piece go. I do want you to be happy but I can’t say I want you happy with someone else because it bothers me so bad but since Kiera does for you what I couldn’t then you should be with her. You made your decision and it isn 't me. So I guess this is it, I guess she 's your new