The first of them being my fear of failing, I would say that it has conjured itself up out of my past experiences and the energizer bunny that runs throughout my mind who’s fueled by my anxieties. In terms of my past experiences, I’ve always had a competitive nature about myself. Whether it was trying to do the best grande jeté in my ballet class (by the way, I could never do it perfectly and that frustrated the hell out of me) or being perceived as the most responsible out of my siblings, I’ve always had this underlining notion in my head that I had to be the best and failure was not an option. It seemed as if I had magnified the pressure to do well so much in my head that it became less of a healthy competitive drive, and more of a fear of receiving disapproval from others. This was the point in my refection where I had sort of an awakening. You see, it wasn’t failure that I was afraid of, it was disapproval. I then searched through my past experiences to find that I’ve always unconsciously sought out approval in
The first of them being my fear of failing, I would say that it has conjured itself up out of my past experiences and the energizer bunny that runs throughout my mind who’s fueled by my anxieties. In terms of my past experiences, I’ve always had a competitive nature about myself. Whether it was trying to do the best grande jeté in my ballet class (by the way, I could never do it perfectly and that frustrated the hell out of me) or being perceived as the most responsible out of my siblings, I’ve always had this underlining notion in my head that I had to be the best and failure was not an option. It seemed as if I had magnified the pressure to do well so much in my head that it became less of a healthy competitive drive, and more of a fear of receiving disapproval from others. This was the point in my refection where I had sort of an awakening. You see, it wasn’t failure that I was afraid of, it was disapproval. I then searched through my past experiences to find that I’ve always unconsciously sought out approval in