Divorce Isn 'T Such A Tragedy'

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Saint Augustine said, "Lord, let me know myself, let me know you." Describe a relationship that has helped you to know yourself better. Jennifer Weiner wrote, “Divorce isn 't such a tragedy. A tragedy 's staying in an unhappy marriage and teaching your children the wrong things about love.” As I have grown older, this is a statement that I have learned to be true. My parents got divorced when I was a very little girl. I do not remember anything about the fighting, the lawyers, or the custody battles. I remember being four years old and wondering why my dad was not coming home anymore. I remember the weeks each summer and the alternating holidays spent visiting my father. I remember the tearful goodbyes whenever I had to leave
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We do not see eye to eye on most things and therefore it has been a slightly rough relationship. There have been periods in my life where I have been so angry with him that I have been glad that he lives so far away from me. We would get in awful fights and I would always hang up the phone in tears vowing never to speak to him again. After a while though, I always start to feel guilty. He was my dad after all and I couldn’t stay angry at him forever. The anger and guilt would just weigh me down. I had a brief time in my life where I was letting my unstable relationship with my dad negatively affect all of the other relationships in my life. A few years ago, I promised myself to stop letting him get to me so much. I didn’t want to be a girl that took out my anger at an absent father on people who were just trying to be present and caring in my life. When I did this, I realized how much time I had been wasting being angry at a man who was never going to …show more content…
I want to keep people around who are going to love and support me. I do not need to waste any more of my life trying to change people and forcing them to be something that they are not. All of these outward interactions have helped me grow on the inside. I have come out of adversity as a stronger person. I am more independent because of the times that I felt it was necessary to be isolated from good people in my life. Looking back, I realize that it would have been in my best interest to allow my friends and family to help me through rough patches with my dad, but I am thankful for how I handled each different situation because they allowed me to grow into the person that I am today. I do not have a perfect relationship with my dad and I am not sure that I ever will, but we both work everyday to make it better. It has never been easy, but my relationship with my dad has allowed me to realize what is truly important in life. I have grown into a woman with strong values and opinions because of the experiences that I have been through with my dad. Though it may not have been the ideal situation, my relationship with my daughter was necessary to shape me into the young woman that I am

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