When I had asked her what was going through her head and what her feelings were she responded, “everything I was asking myself why me of all girls and nothing the nurses did helped me stay calm.” Folding her hands on her knees she continues “how can any mother be comfortable giving birth to a baby six months premature?” It was clear she knew her baby would not live. Tamia described all the pain she had felt that night delivering her baby she had decided against the epidural so she could experience as much as a natural labor as possible. When born her son had very red skin with his veins showing, his body was lifeless and only a few inches long. In pictures shown to me, her baby boy’s whole body was able to fit in an adult’s hand. I then asked Tamia what she did to feel like she was still a mother and what they did to experience what “normal” parents would. She then told me “we let the hospital take newborn and family pictures of us in the hospital they were free to us.” Tamia also said because she had had a miscarriage they needed to immediately begin planning the funeral and have their son cremated. The only time they were able to hold their son was the few hours after she had just delivered
When I had asked her what was going through her head and what her feelings were she responded, “everything I was asking myself why me of all girls and nothing the nurses did helped me stay calm.” Folding her hands on her knees she continues “how can any mother be comfortable giving birth to a baby six months premature?” It was clear she knew her baby would not live. Tamia described all the pain she had felt that night delivering her baby she had decided against the epidural so she could experience as much as a natural labor as possible. When born her son had very red skin with his veins showing, his body was lifeless and only a few inches long. In pictures shown to me, her baby boy’s whole body was able to fit in an adult’s hand. I then asked Tamia what she did to feel like she was still a mother and what they did to experience what “normal” parents would. She then told me “we let the hospital take newborn and family pictures of us in the hospital they were free to us.” Tamia also said because she had had a miscarriage they needed to immediately begin planning the funeral and have their son cremated. The only time they were able to hold their son was the few hours after she had just delivered