He wants his thought to “dive down into [his] soul,” so that he doesn't have a chance to change his mind. This is the last second for him to be able to decide whether to be evil or not, so he forces himself to become the villain quickly so as to stifle feelings of guilt. Now it sounds like the entire time he was speaking, he was trying to convince himself to go through with playing the part of the villain. As he’s being interrupted, he’s reminding himself not to let the appearance of his brother keep him from embracing the villain. After years of abuse and alienation, Richard finally gives up and decides to be a villain. Richard is often seen as inherently evil, but this first paragraph may call that into question. It sounds as though he’s simply fed up with his circumstances and has convinced himself to play the villain, as all of the succeeding actions of his in the play are just byproducts this self-inflicted treachery. We see this guilt and fear over what he’s become clearly as the end of the play, realizing that he was forcing himself to be
He wants his thought to “dive down into [his] soul,” so that he doesn't have a chance to change his mind. This is the last second for him to be able to decide whether to be evil or not, so he forces himself to become the villain quickly so as to stifle feelings of guilt. Now it sounds like the entire time he was speaking, he was trying to convince himself to go through with playing the part of the villain. As he’s being interrupted, he’s reminding himself not to let the appearance of his brother keep him from embracing the villain. After years of abuse and alienation, Richard finally gives up and decides to be a villain. Richard is often seen as inherently evil, but this first paragraph may call that into question. It sounds as though he’s simply fed up with his circumstances and has convinced himself to play the villain, as all of the succeeding actions of his in the play are just byproducts this self-inflicted treachery. We see this guilt and fear over what he’s become clearly as the end of the play, realizing that he was forcing himself to be