Since, I must reexamine my own past traumatic and crisis periods. For myself, in this class I had to reexperience a traumatic period of my own life. the crisis and traumatic time for me was during a period in my husband’s life. his attempts at multiple suicidal attempts, and the fact that he held a gun to my head twice because I refused to allow him to complete the act. Whereas, his last suicide attempt the gun he had pointed at me involved my young teenage daughter beside me. At that time, looking down the barrel of a gun, with my daughter beside me, I told him if he was going to kill me or himself to just do it. Since, the past 10 years my husband has suffered from a mental illness, along with a substance abuse problem. Although, many people told me I should leave him, I refused since my wedding vows included “till death do us part”. That one day on August 18, 2008 I was ready to die, I was to the point that I did not care. As most people going throughout a crisis in a rural town there is no one to share your feeling and help you to deal with this type of situation. Therefore, I ended up having a complete nervous breakdown, would not leave my home for over six months, and was diagnosed with severe major depression, PTSD, and pain attacks. Right now, due to the mental issues I have, I do take benzodiazepines, and mood stabilizers to help me even leave my home. I am mortified by guns, I stay in a Constance state of
Since, I must reexamine my own past traumatic and crisis periods. For myself, in this class I had to reexperience a traumatic period of my own life. the crisis and traumatic time for me was during a period in my husband’s life. his attempts at multiple suicidal attempts, and the fact that he held a gun to my head twice because I refused to allow him to complete the act. Whereas, his last suicide attempt the gun he had pointed at me involved my young teenage daughter beside me. At that time, looking down the barrel of a gun, with my daughter beside me, I told him if he was going to kill me or himself to just do it. Since, the past 10 years my husband has suffered from a mental illness, along with a substance abuse problem. Although, many people told me I should leave him, I refused since my wedding vows included “till death do us part”. That one day on August 18, 2008 I was ready to die, I was to the point that I did not care. As most people going throughout a crisis in a rural town there is no one to share your feeling and help you to deal with this type of situation. Therefore, I ended up having a complete nervous breakdown, would not leave my home for over six months, and was diagnosed with severe major depression, PTSD, and pain attacks. Right now, due to the mental issues I have, I do take benzodiazepines, and mood stabilizers to help me even leave my home. I am mortified by guns, I stay in a Constance state of