I was exposed to domestic violence early in life. I grow up where disrespect was normal. Emotional and verbal abuse were tolerated. By the time I was an adult emotional abuse in the form of criticism, being negative, name-calling, yelling, and punishment had made me numb. As a result, my self-esteem was nonexistent and joy was a distant memory.
As a toddler I mimicked what I observed, I was disrespectful and used profanity. When I was in preschool, my dad threaten me for being disrespectful to Paul (my maternal grandfather) after he heard me call him “an old fool”. I stopped calling Paul derogatory names, but it was only out for fear not that I had learned my lesson. I didn 't realize that” reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue …show more content…
Showing annoyance caused interpersonal conflicts at work and caused me to resign from several jobs- and not be eligible for rehire. Even after learning that principle I did not put into practice. I went to counseling for anger management, but that didn 't help. When I was dating a man in my 30 's after another anger outburst. He asked me was I going to continue to act a fool every time I got angry. His question stopped me in my tracks and I thought about it, but I still wasn 't ready to repent. I continued to be paraphrase” Folly the woman who is loud and undisciplined...” At that point in life, I could no longer claim to be without wisdom.
It wasn’t until I went to treatment for the second time in my life after assaulting a police officer that … The wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. (James 3:17)
I learned that feeling disrespected caused me to go into a rage. I realized I had felt disrespected by everybody including my children. My children wouldn 't listen to me and that caused me to feel disrespected. They didn 't listen because I lacked prudence (self-discipline). Since I lacked that value, I could not instill it in my
As a toddler I mimicked what I observed, I was disrespectful and used profanity. When I was in preschool, my dad threaten me for being disrespectful to Paul (my maternal grandfather) after he heard me call him “an old fool”. I stopped calling Paul derogatory names, but it was only out for fear not that I had learned my lesson. I didn 't realize that” reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue …show more content…
Showing annoyance caused interpersonal conflicts at work and caused me to resign from several jobs- and not be eligible for rehire. Even after learning that principle I did not put into practice. I went to counseling for anger management, but that didn 't help. When I was dating a man in my 30 's after another anger outburst. He asked me was I going to continue to act a fool every time I got angry. His question stopped me in my tracks and I thought about it, but I still wasn 't ready to repent. I continued to be paraphrase” Folly the woman who is loud and undisciplined...” At that point in life, I could no longer claim to be without wisdom.
It wasn’t until I went to treatment for the second time in my life after assaulting a police officer that … The wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. (James 3:17)
I learned that feeling disrespected caused me to go into a rage. I realized I had felt disrespected by everybody including my children. My children wouldn 't listen to me and that caused me to feel disrespected. They didn 't listen because I lacked prudence (self-discipline). Since I lacked that value, I could not instill it in my