Personal Narrative: The Struggle Of Anxiety

Living with the struggle of anxiety is constantly an exhausting and burdening challenge. Trying to battle and conquer your emotions so you can lead what is considered a “normal” life is the toughest challenge of all. The mind of someone who has anxiety works a lot different than the mind of those who do not. Anxious people are often in a state of uneasiness, apprehension, and uncertainty resulting from anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening situation, impairing physical and psychological performance.
I’ve struggled with anxiety for my entire life, but it has never been substantially present until about a year ago. Around a year ago, I started experiencing the symptoms of anxiety in my own unique way. The angst started getting bad because of some of the relationships I had with certain people at the time. The relationships I had made me feel insignificant and plummeted my self esteem. I began to feel extremely nauseous and out of sorts every time I had to do something I remotely didn’t want to do. The disorder makes my breathing pace quicken and my heart beat furiously. I can never control my …show more content…
What other people see as a fun night out with their friends, I see as a scary situation that might leave me feeling panicked, alone, or sad. This fear has limited what I am able to do. I am no longer able to go out with people I love as much as I’d like to, because I’m afraid of what I might do when I get there. Will I feel nauseous and have to go home early or will I fidget and stay quiet like a weirdo? My mind identifies every possible scenario that could happen and I start to overthink things too much. Additionally, I tend to become upset with myself when I say or do something mildly impolite, like not say goodbye. Then I tend to spend a ton of time obsessing over what it was I did. Usually, when I apologize for the things I did, no one cared at all and I eventually figure out I was overthinking things