I watched her go from my happy sister to a tiny frail little girl who couldn 't even hold food down.I shaved my head so she wouldn 't feel so out of place, but people continued to say I did it for attention. It broke my heart and this is when my depression got out of hand.
One night as I rode the bus home, I broke down into tears and had my first anxiety attack. This is also when I first talked to one of the greatest people I know. He walked up and sat next to me and talked to me for about three hours on the way home from the band competition. It was the first time in almost two years that I had a real conversation with someone about how I felt.
He convinced me to go to church. At first I thought it was the most ridiculous thing I had ever heard and there was no way I was going. I hadn 't been to church since my grandma died six years ago. A couple weeks later I found myself sitting in the christian church pews waiting for church to start. It went pretty well so I decided that I would go …show more content…
I hadn 't been self harming for a few months and I was very proud of myself. I started to encourage people to go to church with me and I found a lot of happiness in going.
I soon got with a new guy at the school and I thought he was a really cool guy. But I started to realize that he wasn 't such a good guy, but I thought that we were going to be together for a really long time. When I found out that he was cheating on me I got so angry that I started to go back to the way I used to