Compulsive Disorder: A Short Story

My story begins like everyone else, I was born. When my parents got married, they were both young. Mom was 21 and dad was just 19. I was born one year later. Dad was in the Air Force and mom was just that, a stay-at-home mom. I don’t remember much about anything while growing up, just little moments. Mostly to do with my own activities; Playing in the mud, playing with our dog or cat, just basically kids stuff you would expect. Growing up, I was very much an introvert. Unfortunately, it was the result of a traumatic experience at the age of two. My dad was accused by my mom of having an affair (if I understand their story correctly). They got into a huge fight the day my dad had to leave to go overseas to ____. Dad left while they were screaming at each other leaving both mom and me standing in the doorway of the house. I was whaling from all the …show more content…
Not only was I battling the monster that treated my physical body, but I was also battling a demon that treated my sanity. There were times where all I could do was go through a mechanical routine just to survive. Just the simple pleasure of just closing my eyes and taking a short nap was filled with dread and fear of what if’s. What if I did do that? What if I didn’t do that? What if this happens, or that happens? What if I was wrong? What if? What if? What if... Trust me when I say that it was ‘hell on earth’ for me.

The O.C.D. also manifested itself in other ways as well. Checking door knobs, checking lights, checking plugs, checking the stove. I have been known to leave work before and go back to the house and check the stove because, even though I knew I turned it off, the “what if...” happened. I would literally break out into chills and cold sweats if I didn’t take care of it. I was finally diagnosed with the O.C.D. through series of events in my late 40 's. I’m on MEDs now and it helps, a lot. That part of my life is now somewhat