My Conception Of God

For a middle class, mostly raised as white, American, it’s safe to say I’ve had quite the brush in with Christianity’s definition of God. More than that actually. Most of my family’s life was spent in the Midwest. Ohio to be exact. While my parents and I were hopping around the whole United States on military standby, the rest of my family on my dad’s side was, has been, and always will be, a part of a very cult like denomination of Christian church. When we finally settled in Ohio, after my dad got released, we began regularly attending it. There I learned a very different God than I know today. There I was introduced to what I would spend nearly every day wrestling with for a very, very long time. My conceptions of God started off obviously …show more content…
The conclusions they came to had many holes in them. Applying modern society to the book. Applying literally meaning to every book. Not taking into account the huge gaps of years between the society that were responsible for each book and the different formats in which all were written. I began to research the history of the time period as well, returning to my scientific desire for factual happenings to base my spiritual beliefs on. I began to see a God that was a God of people. Of the evolving world. A God of love, but also indignation. A God that cared for us, but also sternly enforced his own law. A God that then forgave. A God that didn’t create the ultimatums of heaven or hell, but a God who did change and evolve, and yet always stayed the same in his unwavering interest and care for humanity. Overtime I was comforted by the every changing unfathomable-ness of a God of all of mankind. It made sense after all. God is indeed being perceived by the ever-changing mankind so God himself is being understood in knew ways every day and therefore is evolving to the standards of our …show more content…
God to me was a being that encompassed all I hated about my life and myself, all that I wanted to reject and leave. Then, over time and over many different means of understanding, God became a father. Then, a parent. Then, a being who is just a part of me as my own conscious. God became everyone, and resided in everyone. God became just as important as everyone, and everyone became just as important as a god. I’m excited to see where my understanding will take me next and how the vastness of creation and science and humanities will further that understanding. I hope to accomplish growth in this year. I hope to accomplish patience and the restraint to listen to the raw perceptions of others. I hope to see a new God just as glorious and ineffable as the being the being I used to