“Innocence is thought charming because it offers delightful possibilities for exploitation.” -Mason Cooley
This is the story of how I learned to be true to myself. This mesmerizing and unattainable woman was mine. Somehow, out of all the single minded girls and boys out there, she had chosen me. We’ll call this woman Jane. For the sake of my own sanity we’ll call her Jane.
I had just turned fourteen years old and I was completely obsessed with myself and what other people thought about me. I was never really into the teenage hang out scene, I wasn’t into drugs or drama as a child, nor into the whole “I’m human garbage” craze. I kept to myself and didn’t cause any waves, until I met Satan, disguised as a god damned angel. This didn’t matter because I had never been loved the way that Jane had loved me… She was my first everything, my love, my laugh, the reason, the only reason that I …show more content…
Jane wasn’t happy in her own life and she had to take it out on someone else. Damaged people flock to me and I just wanted so badly to help them. I “fixed” Jane so she could be with Kayla.
“The worst part wasn’t me losing her, it was losing myself.” -Taylor Swift
I blame her to this very day for the emotional and physical damage that she had caused. I do not need someone to make me happy, I should be the one to make myself happy. I make my own decisions and mistakes. I let another human being cause me pain and I never had the courage to speak up for myself.
I make myself happy, I am not a toy for your games, and I certainly am not your “um-friend”, Jane the girl of my dreams, the one that I could never stop thinking about had destroyed me. She destroyed my sense of self before I had even learned how to cope with my first heartbreak. I cried one time, only once. I couldn’t even look myself in the eyes after that embarrassment. I resorted to finding any way at all, to feel anything at
This is the story of how I learned to be true to myself. This mesmerizing and unattainable woman was mine. Somehow, out of all the single minded girls and boys out there, she had chosen me. We’ll call this woman Jane. For the sake of my own sanity we’ll call her Jane.
I had just turned fourteen years old and I was completely obsessed with myself and what other people thought about me. I was never really into the teenage hang out scene, I wasn’t into drugs or drama as a child, nor into the whole “I’m human garbage” craze. I kept to myself and didn’t cause any waves, until I met Satan, disguised as a god damned angel. This didn’t matter because I had never been loved the way that Jane had loved me… She was my first everything, my love, my laugh, the reason, the only reason that I …show more content…
Jane wasn’t happy in her own life and she had to take it out on someone else. Damaged people flock to me and I just wanted so badly to help them. I “fixed” Jane so she could be with Kayla.
“The worst part wasn’t me losing her, it was losing myself.” -Taylor Swift
I blame her to this very day for the emotional and physical damage that she had caused. I do not need someone to make me happy, I should be the one to make myself happy. I make my own decisions and mistakes. I let another human being cause me pain and I never had the courage to speak up for myself.
I make myself happy, I am not a toy for your games, and I certainly am not your “um-friend”, Jane the girl of my dreams, the one that I could never stop thinking about had destroyed me. She destroyed my sense of self before I had even learned how to cope with my first heartbreak. I cried one time, only once. I couldn’t even look myself in the eyes after that embarrassment. I resorted to finding any way at all, to feel anything at