He was four months and ten days old. I felt like my life was over and any meaning I had found in my life in the past four months was gone. I felt like killing myself. I had nothing to hope for, until I found out that I was pregnant with my second son four weeks later. Marshall is now seven years old and I find meaning with him every day. I feel that if I had not gone through what I did with Grayson, I would not value each day and strive for a brighter future. I could be mad and have a crappy attitude about how it 's not fair that my first son was taken from me, but that doesn 't help me acheieve goals or help me to be a good role model for my
He was four months and ten days old. I felt like my life was over and any meaning I had found in my life in the past four months was gone. I felt like killing myself. I had nothing to hope for, until I found out that I was pregnant with my second son four weeks later. Marshall is now seven years old and I find meaning with him every day. I feel that if I had not gone through what I did with Grayson, I would not value each day and strive for a brighter future. I could be mad and have a crappy attitude about how it 's not fair that my first son was taken from me, but that doesn 't help me acheieve goals or help me to be a good role model for my