The Consequences Of Social Interaction

Growing up, I was an extremely shy, insecure person. Social interaction had always been an intimidating and anxiety-filled experience for me. Every time I had a conversation with someone, my heart started throbbing and sweat drenched my skin, so I barely talked during young age. It continued through my young teenage year. I never participated in class discussions, even if the teacher called on me, it would just be an awkward silence. At the time, I didn’t notice of all the unpleasant and painful consequences of being shy. When I was in seventh grade, I had my most frustrating and humiliating experience. It was the winter of 2011, the cold wind howled through the trees and black clouds gathered overhead. My math teacher Mr. Wai was preparing to host a presentation for faculties of other schools to demonstrate his teaching methods. On the day prior to the presentation, we were practicing for it and I was sitting quietly in my seat. Suddenly, Mr. Wai stared at me with disdain. I remember it clearly. “Get out of here, I don’t need a speechless idiot in my class,” he cursed at me in front of everyone. I didn’t know what to do but just sat …show more content…
It was like an angel and a devil meet and battle inside my brain. “Don’t try to change yourself, you will look like a fool. Stay still and everything will be fine,” said the demon, his voice was shaking, full of fear. “Hey! Don’t be afraid to change just because you are scared that you might fail. Everyone fails! Just put yourself out there and you will succeed,” angel spoke softly, like a mother. “Don’t trust her! Look, Han, it’s going to be painful. Don’t take risks, just sit back and relax,” demon advised against it. “Yes, you will be scary and painful, but I can guarantee that you won’t regret it. So be brave, trust in yourself,” angel smiled and replied. Their heated quarrel continued. Finally, they got exhausted and turned to me for a final decision. I decided to