Personal Narrative-Schizophrenic Analysis

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My experience in hell felt ridiculously timeless, therefore, I knew this couldn’t have been a schizophrenic episode. I often wondered if perhaps I hadn’t passed through time for that long at all and if time remained nothing but a vague feeling. If that was so, that was the worst episode ever. Nevertheless, I’m doubtful. The burns, the slashes, the bites are hardly memorable, but I've always remembered the words. Various victims of hell existed other than myself, but everybody was engulfed with their own suffering to formulate relationships with one another. Satan’s absolutely a familiar entity in my universe, and It’s real. Satan is referred to as It in view of the fact that it was no Earthly species that had a gender. There was no possibility that my mind could conjure up such imagery of It. It is indescribable. Not because I’m incapable of finding the words, but because it is forbidden for the human brain to describe Its appearance- even in one’s own mind. Sometimes, it felt as if I experienced schizophrenic episodes of hallucinations within this “hallucination” of hell, therefore, I knew that I truly was in hell, because I cannot have an episode within an episode... Right? Numerous questions would surge my mind …show more content…
The ruler of pain. The ruler of darkness. The ruler of brutality. The ruler of bloodshed. I am all things immoral within the universes and dimensions. I watch and see all, just as God does. I particularly watched you. You are nothing special, you are nothing sweet, you are no angel. Yet I desire you the greatest amount. I am a powerful entity, but even I can comprehend the oddities of our universe. I have never felt, nor have I ever fallen due to anyone but your Lord. Yet, I have felt, and I have fallen, again, due to the likes of you. I brought you here to torture you, but no longer can I stand your cries. Never will you meet me again, never will you hear my whispers. I have come to tell you my last words, and you will be

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