Feelings of confidence and pride can come from being a decision maker, but with that also comes feelings of having to be perfect. Having been taught to be an independent decision maker, it can feel as if I shouldn’t have to ask for advice or help. “I have made plenty of decisions before on my own, why should I have to bother someone else about this choice?” has been a thought that has ran through my head about having to make a decision. I know this isn’t correct, and I have learned to ask for help at school about work and projects I do not understand, but where it is hard is having to swallow my pride on the personal issues and choices. Sometimes I can’t do it alone. I strive to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to, but I can’t. Life isn 't supposed to be one against the world. An aspect of life is learning that I don’t have to be a decision maker on my own. The decisions I am making are not new decisions. They have been thought about for a long time, and the people who have made those decisions, or even the ones making the decisions right alongside of me, are the people I must turn to when I can’t do it alone. I am a decision maker. But I won’t be one
Feelings of confidence and pride can come from being a decision maker, but with that also comes feelings of having to be perfect. Having been taught to be an independent decision maker, it can feel as if I shouldn’t have to ask for advice or help. “I have made plenty of decisions before on my own, why should I have to bother someone else about this choice?” has been a thought that has ran through my head about having to make a decision. I know this isn’t correct, and I have learned to ask for help at school about work and projects I do not understand, but where it is hard is having to swallow my pride on the personal issues and choices. Sometimes I can’t do it alone. I strive to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to, but I can’t. Life isn 't supposed to be one against the world. An aspect of life is learning that I don’t have to be a decision maker on my own. The decisions I am making are not new decisions. They have been thought about for a long time, and the people who have made those decisions, or even the ones making the decisions right alongside of me, are the people I must turn to when I can’t do it alone. I am a decision maker. But I won’t be one