Graduation Speech - Original Writing Essay

1231 Words Oct 21st, 2015 5 Pages
Over the past few weeks I realized I have become exhausted. I became angry with myself for my lack of time management and perseverance. I quickly realized I was just doing enough to get by. At the beginning of the year I was so enthusiastic and so ready to see what God had in store for me. A few weeks and reports later I was ready to leave. I became overwhelmed and stressed out. As I was cramming to finish “One Way Love,” I again became frustrated. I had all this time yet I still waited till the last second to finish reading and write this paper. It was towards the end, however, that God began to break and rearrange me. I had allowed legalism to once again cloud my mind. I am going to a leadership college, surrounded by leaders, and through the worship practicum constantly in front of people, and subconsciously I began to think that all of that means I have to have everything together at all times.
I realized I have a lot in common with Tchividjian. I am a perfectionist at heart and if I’m not performing then am I truly accomplishing anything? By trying to be perfect I became blinded by the law. Obey covenant, do your devotions, take notes, be present at everything, have enthusiasm, no complaining, be a leader, and the list goes on. Many days I was on the verge of tears, but for fear of being called out I faked a smile and pretended that where I was at was exactly where I wanted to be. In all honesty I was tired and I wanted nothing more than to go home to my family.…

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