Who Am I? A question that arose frequently during this semester. I am a senior at the University of West Georgia, 21 years old, a girlfriend, daughter, and an outgoing friend. These are the general descriptions I can say about myself. This semester I analyzed this question frequently to analyze my “inner self”. Analyzing my inner self was difficult for me because, I had difficulty expressing my emotions. To analyze my emotions, freedom, and inner self this essay will be autoethnographical. Autoethnography is an approach to research and writing that seeks to describe and systematically analyze personal experience in order to understand cultural experience. (Ellis, Adams, & Bochner, 2010) In this essay I will analyze the theoretical approach
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Nicholas always challenged us to think what makes us free and how are we restrained from freedom. At first these concepts were difficult to answer because, I feel like I’m never truly “free”. I feel that my freedom is restrained due to being in school and abiding by societal norms. Freedom is the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint. (Webster, n.d.) I feel restrained from school due to the responsibility of abiding by my professors’ rubrics and rules in order to pass my classes. In college, there is a lack of freedom because, you’re obligated to do your work and participate fully in your classes to obtain a better lifestyle for your future. School in general restricted me from my full freedom because, I know that school is like a society standard and if I fail at it my future would be affected. Another way I feel restrained from my freedom is abiding by societal norms. Societal norms are rules that are viewed as acceptable by a group or society. For example, in society it is a norm for couples to get married to raise children in a mother and father household. According to Ryan Anderson he …show more content…
During the course of college, I’ve been battling with finding my inner-self. My freshman and sophomore year in college were my party years and school was a second factor to me. During these years I forgot my purpose for being sent to college. Also, I was dating an abusive boyfriend to escape the pain I was binge drinking and partying. I was so stressed on finding love that I forgot my morals as a female. I allowed someone to enter my life to disrespect me, beat me, and belittle me to nothing. He was also a reason that I didn’t attend any of my classes nor buy any textbooks. I was so wrapped up in the relationship that I didn’t care about anything but partying and him. In my mind I thought the purpose of college was to party hard, hang with boyfriend all day, and do work later. In my beginning of sophomore year, I seen my grades decline tremendously due to all of the partying and stressing over a guy who cared nothing about me. This is when I started to reflect on my life as a whole and started to analyze my inner-self. As I reflected on myself I thought about how could I change myself and what benefit can it bring me in the future. In the movie The Color Purple, the main character Celie struggled with finding her inner self after her mother died and big sister ran away. Celie’s voice was silenced due to the harsh treatment and abuse by her husband, Mister, she states,
He beat me like he beat the children.
Nicholas always challenged us to think what makes us free and how are we restrained from freedom. At first these concepts were difficult to answer because, I feel like I’m never truly “free”. I feel that my freedom is restrained due to being in school and abiding by societal norms. Freedom is the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint. (Webster, n.d.) I feel restrained from school due to the responsibility of abiding by my professors’ rubrics and rules in order to pass my classes. In college, there is a lack of freedom because, you’re obligated to do your work and participate fully in your classes to obtain a better lifestyle for your future. School in general restricted me from my full freedom because, I know that school is like a society standard and if I fail at it my future would be affected. Another way I feel restrained from my freedom is abiding by societal norms. Societal norms are rules that are viewed as acceptable by a group or society. For example, in society it is a norm for couples to get married to raise children in a mother and father household. According to Ryan Anderson he …show more content…
During the course of college, I’ve been battling with finding my inner-self. My freshman and sophomore year in college were my party years and school was a second factor to me. During these years I forgot my purpose for being sent to college. Also, I was dating an abusive boyfriend to escape the pain I was binge drinking and partying. I was so stressed on finding love that I forgot my morals as a female. I allowed someone to enter my life to disrespect me, beat me, and belittle me to nothing. He was also a reason that I didn’t attend any of my classes nor buy any textbooks. I was so wrapped up in the relationship that I didn’t care about anything but partying and him. In my mind I thought the purpose of college was to party hard, hang with boyfriend all day, and do work later. In my beginning of sophomore year, I seen my grades decline tremendously due to all of the partying and stressing over a guy who cared nothing about me. This is when I started to reflect on my life as a whole and started to analyze my inner-self. As I reflected on myself I thought about how could I change myself and what benefit can it bring me in the future. In the movie The Color Purple, the main character Celie struggled with finding her inner self after her mother died and big sister ran away. Celie’s voice was silenced due to the harsh treatment and abuse by her husband, Mister, she states,
He beat me like he beat the children.