My dad seemed like a nothing less than Superman to me. He went fishing, hunting, and watched as much football as he possibly could. My dad and I had always been extremely close. From the time I was born until he passed away I was …show more content…
My stepmom’s mom had been staying with us, and my dad was ready for her to leave. Whenever I woke up in the morning I had asked where my parents were, and my grandma had of course replied with the usual, “I don’t know but they will be back.” My stepmom had driven her brand new black Camaro to the gas station because both of parents felt they were dependent on cigarettes. As I am taking care of my little sister I hear my stepmom pull in the driveway and my dad asking where she had been. She replies harshly,”I do not answer to you, I am a grown woman.” I could tell by the change in his voice that he did not want to argue with her; he was just asking a simple question. She proceeds to tell him how she found the gun under the bed he had slept in and asked him “What exactly were you planning to accomplish with this?” It was no secret my dad had suicidal tendencies; I myself tried to sweep it under the rug. A lot more fighting went on, and things were said that I will never know about. Then I heard a gunshot, for some reason I knew exactly what it was. I ran to my phone as fast as I could and called 911. “My dad shot himself, my dad is dead, please help him.”, I hysterically told them. The operator told me multiple times I needed to calm down because she could not understand me. What seemed like the multiple hours was actually a few minutes when help arrived. My stepmom was screaming at the EMTs, “HELP …show more content…
It was not until a year later that I started feeling alive again. I had been living, but had not been alive. The biggest lesson I got out of this was to cherish your loved ones. I have told people to hold dear to your loved ones, because it is a scary and confusing world without them. I never go anywhere without saying “I love you” or “be careful”. Most people think they have forever, when we really do not. Time is short, and I plan on spending it with the people I love before they are gone. My heart has grown softer and more compassionate for other families. I now know loss so I can sympathize for others. I have also learned that whenever you know of someone who is suicidal, do not hesitate to seek help. I do not take suicide comments lightly or jokingly. Whenever someone tells you that they are suicidal, act immediately. Although at times I do not understand, I do believe in a bigger plan. I have learned many life lessons from what has happened in my life, and I have proceed to find the good in the