Although most people tend to resent or even hate their abuser, Kambili has an abiding love for her father. She has been manipulated into believing that she deserves these beatings because she is full of sins. Even after father Eugene beat her with a belt as a result of eating too close to mass, Kambili is filled with guilt and sorrow for her sin. However, Kambili does not feel this way toward her father forever. When visiting her aunt and cousins in Nsukka, she begins to see how a normal, functional family gets along. They do not live in fear of each other. As a result of all the physical abuse she has receive, Kambili often finds herself mute. When having the desire to talk and laugh with the other girls her age, the timid spirit that has been beaten into her wins over, and she decides to hide. It is not until after she has been beaten into the hospital that Kambili truly begins to resent her
Although most people tend to resent or even hate their abuser, Kambili has an abiding love for her father. She has been manipulated into believing that she deserves these beatings because she is full of sins. Even after father Eugene beat her with a belt as a result of eating too close to mass, Kambili is filled with guilt and sorrow for her sin. However, Kambili does not feel this way toward her father forever. When visiting her aunt and cousins in Nsukka, she begins to see how a normal, functional family gets along. They do not live in fear of each other. As a result of all the physical abuse she has receive, Kambili often finds herself mute. When having the desire to talk and laugh with the other girls her age, the timid spirit that has been beaten into her wins over, and she decides to hide. It is not until after she has been beaten into the hospital that Kambili truly begins to resent her