They ended up staying in a room together, and he raped her. She went to take a shower, clean herself from what had just happened. “I determined to clean my body as it had never been cleaned… and to purify my soul with all the prayers I could remember from my father 's and my husband’s cremations,” (117) she tried cleaning the shame from what had just happened, she did not want to feel it anymore. She felt as if she were dying, that is why she did not care if she died at that moment, and that is why she pulled out a knife to slit her throat. She stopped herself because of what she believed in, “I didn 't feel the passionate embrace of Lord Yama… I could not let my personal dishonor disrupt my mission.” (118) Her mission kept her alive. She slit his throat instead, she had to put that anger somewhere, she could not let him live after what he had done to
They ended up staying in a room together, and he raped her. She went to take a shower, clean herself from what had just happened. “I determined to clean my body as it had never been cleaned… and to purify my soul with all the prayers I could remember from my father 's and my husband’s cremations,” (117) she tried cleaning the shame from what had just happened, she did not want to feel it anymore. She felt as if she were dying, that is why she did not care if she died at that moment, and that is why she pulled out a knife to slit her throat. She stopped herself because of what she believed in, “I didn 't feel the passionate embrace of Lord Yama… I could not let my personal dishonor disrupt my mission.” (118) Her mission kept her alive. She slit his throat instead, she had to put that anger somewhere, she could not let him live after what he had done to