This is a very significant point in time and it has a lot of meaning. When Winston writes this down he is breaking the law and he is expressing his feelings of contempt for Big Brother. It shows us how even though he is afraid of the consequences he has this inner need to express himself which leads him to disregard these consequences. By doing this he shows courage by following his beliefs and speaking out, a trait not common in the time. Even if this is only to himself he is recognizing his true feelings about the party and by using the word “down” it implies he wants to take the party down. By doing this for himself he is hero for himself or saving himself. In the end of the book Winston shows his fight against the party and another example of his courage by not turning in Julia until the very end. Although this is very counter intuitive it shows how long Winston waited and how heroic he was for taking the pain for her. This is very heroic quality to put one 's needs second to those of another as means for protection. In the moment where Winston and Julia discuss there giving up of each other Winston begins to feel remorse but he realizes how long …show more content…
At the end of the book when Winston 's brain has been rearranged after years of torture and he now believes in party values yet there is still a party of him that remembers things still has inklings of non-party thoughts. For example on ( end of book).At a point near the end of the book Winston remembers his mother; a childhood memory, the ones the party had erased. He pushes the memory away because to think about will make him go insane yet he still has memories and the party has not completely won therefor they have not won at all. The way in the paragraph before winston describes how his life blood is the gin this keeps him in a pain free state where the life before torture is lost. The gin is the fuel that keeps him running because he can’t bare to see what he 's become and so he succumbs to the party partially by half drunkenly believing in their ideas when really the old Winston lives repressed inside him. This repression of thought is exactly what the party wants from Winston for him to not think yet the painful memory to me is what Winston really is. Winston really is a hero because even though he has been broken and altered physically and mentally he still has the ability to stay true to himself and not losing his