Marianne Fit In Analysis

Marianne had struggled throughout her childhood to fit in and be “popular” . She had tried to fit in by making friends, going to camps, and doing normal activities of a teenager. Fitting in never came easy to Marianne because she had always self-conscious and insecure. One day at camp changed her life forever when she was sitting in her bunk. She believed that if she had lost weight she would fit in and be “popular”. This night started her fight against anorexia and bulimia that soon would take over her life. It was a choice she thought was right and would solve all her problems, but it did the exact opposite.
When she was a child she grew up in a very hostile environment about food. She grew up knowing it was okay to only have one big meal …show more content…
Her parents never told her verbally to become anorexic or bulimic, but their actions told her to. As a teenager many changes are going on physically and emotionally. All the changes started to overwhelm her and affected her daily activities, and she became desperate for someone to listen to her. She often fantasized herself in a different life and how amazing it would be. Then she dismissed them because in the world she grew up in, she could not have those feelings. Having those feelings made her angry and confused because no one else had them. For example, when she liked a guy, she got upset because she believed she was not allowed to have emotions. Instead of expressing these emotions like a normal teenager she took these emotions out on herself and blamed herself for everything. Anxiety started to overtake her in school because she was afraid of what her parents would think of her if she got a poor grade. During the summer when she was fourteen years old she pledged herself to lose …show more content…
She was able to express her emotions and really find herself with therapy. It took a lot of hard work and dedication because at times during therapy she wanted to give up and live her life. During therapy, her parents and brother tried to become more supportive in helping her overcome the disorders. During therapy, aspects of her life were brought up such as her childhood and struggles. To get through the disorders it required more than therapy. She experienced withdrawals and urges like addicted drug users have. She had to create control over her body to not give in. To overcome this she pledged herself to never give up no matter how long it took. In the end, she was able to overcome it and finally realized how much she matters in the world and she 's not worth