Holden has gone through several difficult experiences. When Holden’s roommate, Stradlater, asked Holden to write his English paper for him about anything descriptive, Holden directly thought of someone that meant very much to him. Holden reminisces about his younger brother when he explains, “[Allie] was two years younger than I was, but he was about fifty times as intelligent” (43). The hyperbole, “fifty times as intelligent,” (43) reveals Holden’s lack of self-esteem when he describes how Allie was so much smarter than him. His low self-esteem is shown several times in the novel and is one of the causes of Holden’s depression. Holden compares himself to other people and often sets unrealistic expectations on them, which explains why he gets depressed when people act phony. From Allie’s death, Holden realized that not everything in life is permanent and the change from childhood to adulthood is part of the reason why he rejects society. He doesn’t want to get too attached to anyone and then have to deal with losing him or her, like how Allie left him. Holden was very attached to Allie and to undergo this loss at the age of thirteen, evoked …show more content…
The miserable events that occurred in Holden’s life led him down a dark path. Holden’s first had suicidal thought was when he was alone in his hotel room and he mentions, “I almost wished I was dead” (101). He was so lonely in the hotel room with no company that he wanted to die. Also, in a few days he was going to meet his parents and he must have been scared and afraid to visit and tell them that he flunked out of boarding school. His persistently depressed mood can be cleared up with a psychoanalyst’s professional help. The professional would remind Holden what he really cared about, such as Phoebe, his little sister, and Jane, his crush. This would help Holden remember the happiness in his life and show how he can live life to the fullest. Afterwards, Holden attempts to relieve his loneliness by getting a prostitute. However, an unfair prostitute deal is made and a violent altercation occurs between Holden and Maurice, a pimp. Holden gets punched in the stomach and exclaims, “What I really felt like, though, was committing suicide. I felt like jumping out the window,” (116-117). Holden’s depression throughout the novel finally hits the lowest point, where he wanted to commit suicide to get rid of the pain. A psychoanalyst would provide the emotional care and support Holden needs to get