Desperation Stupidity Guilt Forgiveness
Click. Loading. Sent. I felt fine. Go back to doing homework, do not check my phone. About ten minutes later it dawns on me. I screwed up. Why would I do that? Look at my texts, some thank me, some do not respond fearing incrimination. I start to feel guilty.
“Why did you that?” I asked myself “How could you be so stupid?”. I started to panic. I told myself I would not get caught and that plenty of people cheat, it's not a big deal. This was a lie. It was the first and only time I had ever did anything like that. I liked to think I was a good kid, I still believe I am, but I never imagined I would do this. I also never thought I would get beaten to the point of near unconsciousness a few weeks prior or miss a week straight of school because of severe head trauma. I was behind, desperate, I needed someway to boost my good grade, I had a C and I did not want to have it end up on my transcript. I sat down my …show more content…
I downplayed it as my food not settling well and went along the rest my morning routine. After I finished brushing my teeth, my mom took me to school.
When I arrived at school people in the hall were whispering about rumors of test answers in a text. This made me freeze up and break into a cold sweat. I clenched my fist and my lip started to quiver. My hand immediately grabbed my phone. I opened up my photos and deleted all of the pictures of the answers in my phone. Then I cleared my text history. Some of it was covering up, most of it was to clear my conscience. I would have lost sleep and I did not want to set a precedent. It made me feel a little better. I knew that I might still get caught, but at least I was going to take the test “honestly” (since it was math and the answers were all numbers with decimals there was no way I could memorize
Click. Loading. Sent. I felt fine. Go back to doing homework, do not check my phone. About ten minutes later it dawns on me. I screwed up. Why would I do that? Look at my texts, some thank me, some do not respond fearing incrimination. I start to feel guilty.
“Why did you that?” I asked myself “How could you be so stupid?”. I started to panic. I told myself I would not get caught and that plenty of people cheat, it's not a big deal. This was a lie. It was the first and only time I had ever did anything like that. I liked to think I was a good kid, I still believe I am, but I never imagined I would do this. I also never thought I would get beaten to the point of near unconsciousness a few weeks prior or miss a week straight of school because of severe head trauma. I was behind, desperate, I needed someway to boost my good grade, I had a C and I did not want to have it end up on my transcript. I sat down my …show more content…
I downplayed it as my food not settling well and went along the rest my morning routine. After I finished brushing my teeth, my mom took me to school.
When I arrived at school people in the hall were whispering about rumors of test answers in a text. This made me freeze up and break into a cold sweat. I clenched my fist and my lip started to quiver. My hand immediately grabbed my phone. I opened up my photos and deleted all of the pictures of the answers in my phone. Then I cleared my text history. Some of it was covering up, most of it was to clear my conscience. I would have lost sleep and I did not want to set a precedent. It made me feel a little better. I knew that I might still get caught, but at least I was going to take the test “honestly” (since it was math and the answers were all numbers with decimals there was no way I could memorize