2006

I shove my headphones into my ears and turn up the song I 'm obsessed with, Tainted Love by Marilyn Manson. I light another cigarette then neared off to the park where I can be alone. ~ I push the snow off the bench and plop down. The park is quiet and lonely; no one in sight except for me. I look at the jungle gym and study the frost on the bars. I wish for a damn miracle. I twirl my foot in the snow making an imperfect circle. I switch positions and feel the papers in my back pocket; I take…

I (Maincharacter) start to feel filthy, i haven 't showered in days and my hair is scratchy. I smell horrible. I walk up to the kidnappers. "Is there any place I could take a shower?" I ask without sounding polite. "Not unless you wanna take a swim." He says as he starts laughing. The rest of them join in. I walk away as I flip them the bird. the younger male kidnapper walks up to me once we 're out of everyone 's sight. He tells me where the shower is. So I guess thoughs jackasses really do…

Upon entering the rooms of NA about 4.5 years ago, I was told some crazy things, by far the crazies was don’t kill yourself in the 1st 5 year of recovery because you will be killing someone you do not know. I remember thinking what a ridiculous idea. I have been living for 40 years of course I knew who I was. How does someone get to be 40 and not know who they are? Yes it was true that I was a drug addict but that did not mean that I had no identity, or that my core values and my worldviews were…

My Dad rolled the wheelchair that I was sitting in out the front doors of the hospital. I looked at my Mom and the look of relief on her face, as well as signs of sleepless nights and worry caused from the last week. My older brother walked next to my wheelchair and showed off a new action figure as if it was just another average day, excited to share new things with me. I never looked back at my Dad in that moment, but I like to think he looked at all of us with great relief, ready to go home.…

I woke up the next morning with a book covering my chest, still opened to the same page. Conner was outstretched at the foot of my full size bed, his furry feet touching mine. With my blankets still undisturbed underneath me, I rolled over with groan and stretched until my back popped, sounding like a round of bullets were being fired. I sat up, wiping the gunk from the corner of my eyes, and saw that I beat my alarm. It was 6:52 a.m. I proceeded to turn off my alarm in advance so it wouldn’t…

As an eighth grader, I had no choice but to balance out my school work, making sure to do all the chores, and taking care of my three younger siblings at home by myself. My parents would be up in the hospital taking care of my now passed grandmother, who had cancer, while I, being the oldest child in the family, had to stay home alone to take care of my younger siblings. At first it was a difficult task for my 12-year old self to handle. While I was doing my homework or studying, I would have to…

Most of the time, when I wasn 't doing my modeling, I was working at my restaurant. I had 12 people who were working for me, but It was hard to be a boss sometimes, especially since I was young and skinny. The staff didn 't always respect me, as much as the oldest or biggest person, but I tried to ignore it, usually, unless there came a time when I really had to fight back. Occasionally, if we didn 't have enough waiters, I worked as a waiter too, and there would sometimes be guys who would try…

You Just as Well Come Clean! Pamela and Rain ~Chapter-One~ As Pamela seat there with her beautiful milky brown skin; and her deep chestnut brown dreamy eyes. With her neatly lock twisted shored length hair, and her slightly over size curves. She slowly lifted up her head, out of her hands, and bargained questioning Rain, “Girl how could I been so stupid, to let this happen to me”? As Rain turned around from looking out of Pamela’s, bay window with the sunlight shining across her dark…

I Thought It Was Me… Chapter one “I 'm home!” I shout as I let myself into the apartment that I call home. As I go to collapse on the couch I hear the sound of the crazed animal that is my mother. “State your name, age, and mission,” she calls. “Kennedy, 16, getting food and a brief moment of peace and quiet before the monsters get home.” That finally gets her to come out from behind the spiral stairs that we 're keeping her out of sight.…

Love is one of the most important themes of Christian faith. Love is important because Jesus showed us the perfect use of love, and how it should be carried out. Because of Jesus’ perfect love, he died on the cross for us, taking away all of our sins. Jesus’s love is the highest form of love there is. Even though Jesus is the only one whose love is perfect, he still commands us to love like He did. John 13:34 says, “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must…