“He knew that this broken place inside him would not be mended, except by some terrible means.” It became quite clear from the son and his siblings that these emotions affected the father to the point where it led to an immense drinking problem. It wasn’t just the fact that he drank, but his problems resulted in abusing his children. “There was a board. A willow wand. And there was himself-his hands and fists and boots-and things he could throw.” The abuse, anger and alcoholism came as a result of the father’s pure unhappiness. He held a grudge against his mother and was incapable of moving on until his perception of her was changed. His wife died early on, just another aspect of his ugly reality, and he had absolutely no relationship with his children. “He became, for us, a thing to be avoided, outsmarted, and exploited.” Who wants to be around someone when not even their own children look up to them or respect them? “I suppose we stopped thinking of him as a human being, certainly as a father.” The ugly patterns and reality he fell into were most definitely a result of his ugly perception. Until someone or something opened his eyes to a new world, with a better reality, absolutely nothing would change. This change was necessary for him to develop a relationship with his children and to earn their respect as a human
“He knew that this broken place inside him would not be mended, except by some terrible means.” It became quite clear from the son and his siblings that these emotions affected the father to the point where it led to an immense drinking problem. It wasn’t just the fact that he drank, but his problems resulted in abusing his children. “There was a board. A willow wand. And there was himself-his hands and fists and boots-and things he could throw.” The abuse, anger and alcoholism came as a result of the father’s pure unhappiness. He held a grudge against his mother and was incapable of moving on until his perception of her was changed. His wife died early on, just another aspect of his ugly reality, and he had absolutely no relationship with his children. “He became, for us, a thing to be avoided, outsmarted, and exploited.” Who wants to be around someone when not even their own children look up to them or respect them? “I suppose we stopped thinking of him as a human being, certainly as a father.” The ugly patterns and reality he fell into were most definitely a result of his ugly perception. Until someone or something opened his eyes to a new world, with a better reality, absolutely nothing would change. This change was necessary for him to develop a relationship with his children and to earn their respect as a human